Up The Stairs

Originally Written: 09/07/24

Published: 10/11/24

I find myself pulled to the unknown spaces,

my curiosity claiming rooms that I rightfully don’t belong to

Its in these secret spaces that I’ve discovered much of me,

but always wishing someone noticed the door cracked,

heard the silent heaves, saw me enough to ask me to leave the room

You walked in and saw me there, my face red and raw,

you didn’t raise your voice at me, or pull me out too soon

You sat with me, and asked me why I crept up those old stairs,

you told me there was a world out there, beyond my fits and flairs

You didn’t force your hand, or tell me I was wrong,

you knew I found familiar ache in where I didn’t belong

Your witness of me hiding became too much to bear,

I pushed you out in avoidance of your cool calm stare

I saw your neutrality as indifference,

opinion being my only anchor to the air around me,

I begged you to leave me, let your absence drown me