When Its Sunny

I don’t know what to say,

watching the life we planned together slip back to this unknown heat from whence it came

I feel quite numb, saying I’ll be going back there, or anywhere really without you

I think I was just starting to figure things out

I miss my family, I miss the simplistic sedation of being told how to be

In some ways its easier, not better, but lighter

I don’t know what else to do with this pain other than put words to page

I wish the doubt wouldn’t have crept up so quickly, I wish naivety would have stayed a little while longer at the table

I sometimes ask myself if I wish I never met you,

No not that, never that

I just wish the weather we found each other in would have been a little clearer

Maybe one day,

When its sunny